The horrible, no-good, very bad day.

I am a sinner. I am sometimes unrepentant. Sometimes I don't even think I need to repent of all the sins I do in a day.

I yelled at my daughter today.

I was very VERY angry with my husband and we fought.

I was very lazy today and didn't do the cleaning or make the phone calls I needed to make.

I was very depressed and upset with myself today. I felt fat, stupid, unproductive, angry, lazy, tired, ugly and like my life was a mess.

Do you have those days?

Isn't it easier to be angry?

Isn't it easier to think others think the same of us, and that's ok, because it's true.

Now, try telling yourself, when you are in that horrible, no-good, very bad day moment, that God loves you.

Kind of sticks in your throat huh?

Definitely sounds fake coming out of my mouth.

I have the signs up on the wall.

The pictures of Jesus' smiling face.

My Bible by my bed where I read it. Sometimes in the morning, sometimes at night and sometimes in the middle of the day when I throw a tantrum and go to my room to cool off.

But all of these things feel very fake when I am mad or depressed.

They feel like they are someone else's property.

The pictures and sayings are up on my wall so that when people come to visit it looks like I am a happy, well adjusted, religious women with a happy, well adjusted, Christ-like home.

But it's all just a show right?

Remind yourself.

God loves you.

God LOVES you.

GOD loves you.

God loves YOU.

GOD loves YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Is that weird? Is that hard?

Than keep saying it until you feel like you can believe it.

It doesn't mean we suddenly are better people. It doesn't mean our depressed or bad feelings go away. But doesn't it make it a little easier to WANT to be happy if someone else loves you too?

I know that I rely too much on my husband to see my own worth.

Does he love me today? Then I am worth being loved!

Is my daughter hugging me? Than I must be good enough to hug!

Why is it harder to use God as our measuring stick?

Because He's not physically here?

THAT is why we need a personal relationship with God.

Find Him in your life. Make Him a real part of your life and you may yet be able to measure your worth through His eyes.

Did I make you think it was easy?

It's not.

I can't do it.

But I know I should. (sometimes) Sometimes I forget.

Can you remind me?

I will try and remind you.

I think that is why we need church in our lives.

So that we can not only remind others that God loves them. They are worth loving. But also so others can remind US!

God loves you.